Most people designate 2009 as "the year of...." It could be a million dreams, the baby year, the year of change, but for me it's the year of my 10 year high school reunion. I'm not going. I made that choice a long time ago. My mentality is I have chosen the people I keep in contact with, all the others drifted away. Plus high school was a painful time for me, and I didn't realize it until afterwards. But over the last couple of weeks I've gotten a lot of friend requests via myspace and facebook from people I went to high school with. It's weird. I'm kinda' thrown by it. I didn't think I mattered to a great deal of people, not to say I lack self confidence, but I wasn't popular in high school. I had my core group of friends and I still talk to a few of those people today (Heck I'm knitting a "good luck study gnome" for my best friend in high school.). But just why me?

And as I'm getting the these friend requests (and then thinking "who the bleep are these people?"), I'm starting to wonder about this one guy in high school I thought was just so "cool." Cool as in cool, not crushing cool. He just knew himself. Looking back I kinda' wished I had talked to him more. Maybe I just answered my own question.

Looking back, I don't know if I accomplished all that I could have in 10 years, but I had fun. And I got to know myself, especially in this last year. But maybe that's why we have these 10 year reunions to remind us how far we've come and how much further we still need to go. Or maybe they have them just so we can wonder.